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i would like to say Happy Ramadhan to all the Muslims out there! ..let's take this opportunity to wash away all of our sins and actions & although i ain't very religious, i hope good things will be bestowed upon me and all of us on this holy month. Amiin.

..so i have no clues on what to write on my next post & decided to answer a question that i found very interesting. TAKE NOTE! you may not understand the content of this post so please feel free to give me feedback on anything [ People are entitled to have different opinions and judgement ] 

What is Love?

i came across this question too often & witnessed variety of answers that in some way related. In my opinion, Love is the ultimate stage/form of Like. For people that plays Pokemon, i can easily structured my definition of Love through my favorite Pokemon of all time. Charmander = Like [Evolve] Charmeleon = Fond [Evolve] Charizard = Love. These three stages of feelings have it's own unique way to be further describe. I do hope my explanations makes sense ._.

Gotta Catch e'm all!

Let's take a look at Charmander first. When you have a Charmander for someone, you'll experience the sudden urge to smile or be nervous every time he/she exist close to you and the fact that you don't even know why you act that way. I have this hypothesis that in every human beings there's a set of unique list within them that when fulfilled will trigger the sense of "Want" which contribute to the growth of Charmander for someone. Please note that, this particular list is not special because it tend to describe people not with depth. That is why you tend to develop Charmander easily. DO YOU GET IT? haha!

After awhile, if Charmander is frequently being involve for a certain someone. It will self-force to an evolution forming a greater form of feeling which is Charmeleon[Fond]. This happened when you've finally realized that there's more reasons to fall for someone than the mere set list that i have described earlier. Your mind & opinions will be jumbled up and restructured based on this new profound feeling, meaning that you'll more likely to be very interested on their aspects of character. Hence, feeling more comfortable & even value them in a sort of way that you'll never imagine feeling. Charmeleon is more powerful & meaningful. Even the little things that he/she did will have an impact on you, a good one. I hope you'll get the idea on what i'm talking about..

The Final stage, Charizard[Love]! This is the most wonderful, powerful & indescribably feeling ever. Yes. INDESCRIBABLY. i can't never perfectly describe what is Love. All i can think is that Love originated from the combination of  Like, Fond and MORE. Plus the depth of Love that you'll feel is too deep to be compared to any other feelings. You know you Love someone when.. that's just the case.. you don't.. it simply happen. Weather it's in the beginning of a relationship or just simply "Love at first sight" 

..a beautiful complication i might say :) 

Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused. -  Paulo Coelho

  

Who.. Why..

A simple question, "How many have you loved?" Is your answer, one and only? Or is it several, all of whom have shaped your life?

The question above have embodied the combination of both being hurt and held. Absolutely no regrets. The depth of Loved i felt for the two individuals can't be compared. Each of them have give reasons that are worthy for our past to be locked and preserved within me, to be remembered, to be Loved.

The first girl i Loved can actually and perfectly be described around the word "Who". Who i Loved is a girl that i first met through my best friend's invitation. It was fasting month & i was invited to joined them for "Iftar" in a Thailand restaurant called Lemon Grass. So basically like most guys meeting a girl that they barely know, a sudden fairy-tale stories will be written in their head and as for me it was "Love At First Sight" the sudden urge to know and be close with her grew even with the little interaction we had about me wanting a piece of her chewing gum... hey, don't judge me.. at least we talked.. a little! lol ..months afterward, Who she became in my head was more then a reality. We shared these three elements together like.. our first Kiss, late night calls & a date on the beach. It was special. We were special. There's no doubt in my mind on what we've experienced together felt like a dream, we were in Loved. Who she is, Who she was, First Real Relationship.

..the next girl i Loved will be based on "Why". Why i Loved her was a girl that have changed my mind toward things that seems impossible to replicate, the feelings i once had. She is also the main reason on Why i merely accomplished with the "Moving On" stage. Although we barely know each other, and i was intended this to stay that way.. but it all changed when her personality, humors & cheerfulness.. i couldn't not fall for her. I can still remember the first time i heard her laughter across the table filled with pizzas, soft drinks & numerous friends talking and enjoying their time. The glasses she wore, the cloths she wore, and even the smile she wore, it was almost perfect, almost. When we were finally together.. It was comfortably different. i have no idea where to start.. Why i Loved her? ..we had amazing moments together, we went through a roller coaster situation together & still.. hanged on ..i couldn't just simply explain it further because sometimes what you feel can't be describe with words and pictures.

i can guess that after reading all that.. you must be thinking about, if both of my past relationships was amazing, beautiful & wonderful like just what i had describe them to be, why aren't we still together? ..it's complicated, maybe it's just me? ..Have you ever reach a point where even if things aren't going well, you force yourself to buried all the horrid reasons away on why the relationship failed so that you can only just reminisced on why you were with her on the first place because all the moments and memories together is worth keeping? ..cause the depth i fell was too deep.

We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you've been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. 

 But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person, someone you lovingly gaze upon and think,  “This is the problem I want to have.”

I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way.

 - Galway Kinnell

Who.. Why.. Loved.