It's all in my head

 Early yesterday's afternoon, I did a quick browse for my new Twitter's header.

&

I came across a very interesting picture that spark my interest in doing this post.

Take a look and give it a thought on what it might portray to you.

( I'm totally doing this in the future, for real.  lol )

Done?

Keep it to yourself.

The quote "Pictures say a thousand word"

So awhile back, I had the opportunity to asked a girl about her own view toward "Star-Gazing". Don't get the wrong idea here. I'm not posting some lovey-dovey post today. It's just one of those conversation that i rarely experience with a girl ..or even people. True Story.

Stuffs like

 "What do you exactly feel whenever you star-gazed?" 

"Do you listen to any particular song?"

& more

Why did i asked her? 

To be honest, being a small enthusiast toward star-gazing, i always wonder what does the opposite gender feel or think or even do whenever they gazed toward the up above. Do they do things like i do when i go star-gazing? Do they think of certain stuffs like i do?
 Curiosity kicks in i guess 
..& yeah..
i'm just trying to keep the conversation alive.
(I never lied in my blog. lol)

By the time I came across that picture, I suddenly drawn back to our conversation. In my head, we were literally at the beach just casually talking while star-gazing. Isn't that weird? a simple picture can do stuffs like that to you? 
powerful stuff indeed.

Anyway, earlier, did you guys portrayed something romantic going on in that picture & thinking i'm going to write something related to that?

 i can't blame you, 

pictures does say a thousand words. :)

Hypothetically, that particular quote is the result of a self-manipulation toward our own thoughts. What we want that picture to be seen as..

or what we desire the picture to be!

 Makes sense?

Maybe, that'd explain clearly behind why does a picture say a thousand words

Now then, 

can you guys imagine,

a mere picture of an apple. 

Woah

PS - if you didn't get the joke.

YOU'RE NOT AN APPLE-ING PERSON!

*boo*

The other end of the Galaxy!

      Yesterday, a mere conversation with my hombre had risen up an interesting topic that i could put next on my blog. Contemplating about it being a broad topic, in a way he helped me narrowed down to something specific which i found it very interesting. We did a little bit of discussion on what should i include whilst referring to his personal experience.

...& the story goes like..

" Knowing that i accidentally being listed with the wrong subjects, I then went straight to the admin's office to  clear things up. On my way, I spotted my friend and took the time to asked him to tagged along. Upon reaching the admin's office, I caught a glimpsed of a girl walking along the same corridor. That's the first time i met her. Unknowingly she's my future long-term girlfriend "

                  I tweaked the original stories quite a bit but honestly in a way, it's the same. So he told me that the time consuming of asking his friend to tagged along may lead to the overall of his Love-struck to that girl. He later then explained that the timing was perfect (Which i argued with it being called 'Fate') that if he didn't asked his friend, he may arrived at the admin's office a little bit early and may missed the encounter.

 Basically, do you guys really think "Timing" is necessary when it comes to Love? or maybe there's only a handful of people that will experience this.

           Time. It controls everything. Everything is something. Something is a thing. A thing can be special. Special is special. wow. I can't believe i made that..HashtagDeep. k.

So what do i think?

       Everything happens for a reason. Cliche. Timing can truly be a large factor. But i believe that it's just a phase for something even larger to take place if you can manage to see it in a positive way tho. For instance, i admit that i did fell for her (regarding to my previous post) but as of right now, I finally came into a conclusion that the reasons why i felt all that was because my timing was a galaxy away being perfect. I stumbled pretty hard. I've made all the wrong moves, said all the wrong things, and be the wrong guy for her & that contribute to the fact that it lower down my self-esteem and it's impossible for me to be with her, but nevertheless, i finally can convince myself that i'm quite happy to at least be able to keep hold a particular moment with her when all those time when she shared those sensitive stories, which i find it very important because maybe just maybe, i gained her trust. I like to believe that in a way, i finally won a little bit of her. There's always a bright side for everything. 

        Although i didn't have the large factor (Timing) on my side but still i managed to fell for her..pretty hard. So this is my proof that there's more to Love then a mere perfect timing. Am i right? or am i right?

It's an intriguingly topic with a cherry on top & a little bit of cabbages!

Oblivion

12:21 AM 8/5/2014

It's been ages since i let myself out to write something that worth thinking about, i feel like the tiny bits of information finally oozing slowly upward together into a figurine of reality in my mind. I know it's late & i have school tomorrow...not that i have classes to attend to... Simply being put i have some free time right now. The right songs has been set for the right moment to shout out loud (Virtually). 

NowPlaying - "All I Ever Want Is You (Original Song) by Megan Davies"

         These feelings of mixture intensity colliding with each other within reality can really be a troublesome for the upcoming of "Anything".  I don't even know if that particular sentence make sense ..it does to me. I feel like i'm on the pinpoint of a very steep cliff with my only two options to be consider, jump or jump. It's a double edge sword which i'm still holding it tightly then ever. I admit that i'm not that bright when it comes to these sort of stuffs, i let my emotions be the captain, lieutenant,general...what ever float your boat. I don't even know why, i'm willingly to let myself drown ..not in a hurtful way tho. The internal "Hope" of what if.. is Strong. i guess? schmuck. i should change the song now.. It's been on repeat for 7 times now or more.. who keeps count? 

NowPlaying - "Helplessly (Original) by Tatiana Manaois"

                   Just as Tatiana sang it beautifully.. Why do i let you in my head? ♫ ..It's not like i'm hoping for something to happen, or subconsciously i want to, i don't even know.. can't even explain it to myself why i'm leeching onto you so tightly. Is this sorcery? or just a phase? Truth to be told, even by some miraculous act of divine power that we ended up together, I can assure you that she'll not be happy & that's a Fact. It's frustrating that i feel this way. Something unnatural preventing me to simply climb up and walk away..We didn't even have a decent conversation face to face and yet..I'm in this situation? call me crazy.

NowPlaying - "Reason To Love by Our Last Night"

      

          At the moment, what i feel, what i want, what i need & what i think.. being an anchor for her boat. It's not like i'm trying to drag her down.. let me explain. I just feel like i owe her everything for something that i not sure about but i'm positively know it'd be worth ...I just want the connection we have right now to be limited because it's what she want ...I just need to be there for her for the storms so that she have something to hang on ...& personally i think this is the best solution.. being an anchor. It's not like i want to be with her, it's something i want to do for her. Honestly.                 

It's more than a gesture between a friend and less between something more(I think).

What do you guys think i should do? A helping hand would be nice..