Wednesday, 25 September 2013

With You, Maybe? (:


Hi!
Take a deep breath, Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

Are You Ready?

I would appreciate if you close your eyes right now, clear your mind and think of nothing but 
The person you like or Love.

Done?

*Smile*

Let's pretend that the person you're thinking of ask you out on a date, for this post sake, imagine it's your first date with him or her.

Answer This!

"What's your definition of the Perfect First Date"

Take Your Time (:

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I'm guessing your reaction would be something like
  • Something simple. As long as I'm with someone who wants to spend time with me and likes me for who I am. A perfect date would be with someone who accepts me for who I really am. 
  • Somewhere quiet, away from the beady eyes of people, where we can be ourselves. i would want him/her to hold me in his/her arms, and then the kiss.. 
  • Walking for the whole night and talking...
  • Sitting at the beach at night
  • Good food. Good conversation. Good movie
  • A quiet night, with some light walking and talking, under medium-low lighting from a street or a bright moon, and snuggling close to him/her
  • Lying on the beach , enjoying the view of the sky with millions of stars
  • .. I have no idea.


Don't read TOO FAST!

Take Your Time, let your imagination run wild (:

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Just by thinking about this stuff can put a big smile on your face doesn't it? 

Love is that Powerful no? :D





So what am i going to write about is relating to the "Perfect Date" in my point of view! enjoy. x :)




EVENT ONE!
FAIRY TALE!


The First thing that would be amazing to experience with your date would surely be like from one of the scene in the Disney's Movie, Tangled! Have you guys watched it yet? it's an awesome movie :) 

..Just imagine that you and your date are on a boat in the middle of a lake with the most outstanding scenery and the environment is exquisitely calm. Just when you're about to start a conversation, suddenly there's thousand of lanterns that are being released to the night calm sky, she suddenly push you back and then she lay down on your chest while looking up to the heaven. You can't move even a bit cause you don't want to interrupt her so you just sit still while playing with her hair gently. Smelling her scent as the wind blow,  then kissing her forehead.

The Scenery.. The Moments.. Shared together in a tiny boat. With every lanterns.. With every heart-beats.. she'll remember












EVENT TWO
NORMAL


The First step,

Before coming to her house, the first romantic thing that i could think of is buying her a flower and a small card that you could write something on it! Greet her with a thousand smiles and a simple gesture of sincere compliments to your date such as " Even tho you dress simple tonight, i'm still quite stunned by you beauty and the way your hair fall is.. *smile* " OR just smile and stare at her eyes, keep smiling and hold her hand gently and give her the flower! (:

Place to Eat, 
a simple restaurant.

 This is where both of them will get the opportunity to share everything about their self. The short stories & the little jokes is quite vital on the process of becoming more closer and more comfortable with each other. Trust will be given and hearts will be open! Take notice all the little things that she do! :)

Next Step,
a trip to the beach.

a walk along the beach will be quite amazing! You don't have to set up something up because Mother Nature has got your back. The way the stars shine & the way the moon glow will eventually set the perfect moment for the "First Kiss" to happen or if she's not ready.. the scenery will be worth to be remember! 

Next?

well.. It's up to the boys' capabilities, such as if he can sing and play the guitar, or if that boy has the talent in photography or if he and she are into star gazing..

To further explain this.. Let’s take a look with the boy that has this interest in star gazing yeah? well he can  bring his telescope to the beach or even make one from scratch, just imagine that there's a camp fire burning up with a telescope just far beside it, he can guide the girl to see the beauty star gazing can offer while both are being covered with blankets! That’s sweet no? ..Afterward they can both sit around the fire, talking, cuddling.. :)

Ending,

It's basically up to you on how to end the perfect date! As for me.. Remember the small card? i would write something up like the little things that she do.. then i would give it to her following up with  a gentle kiss.. OR a kiss on the forehead if she isn't ready OR simply a long warm hug! (:




EVENT THREE



To achieve that Perfect Date... You don't have to travel far or even eat at a restaurant to be honest, the most important thing about all this that i noticed is that the moments and time you're spending time with her together.. doesn't even mean a thing even if you treat the girl to a vending machine.. it's the sincerity of Love and attention you're giving to her that's important (: All the external factors are just helping you and your girl to remember the moment but not the feeling you'll develop toward each other no? correct me if i'm wrong.. :)


I do hope you enjoy reading this, The Little things do count! remember that! x












Friday, 16 August 2013

i should firstly apologies for my lack of consistence in updating my blog frequently, being busy & lazy filled my schedules up good. Anyway it's not too late for me to greet y'guys a very delightful Eid Mubarak! (: Please do forgive my sins..wrong doings and things i did or do that made me to deserved a "bitch slap" ..I'm sorry to the very depth of my heart! x



Basically what am i about to express/share is absolutely different compare with my old posts. The reason for this is that i was stunned for awhile when i heard a bold statement saying that - "In Recent surveys that had been conducted by our researchers has conclude that musics have a very large part in you're daily life. Through music, they shout out loud their feeling" ..i don't even know what channel was that, yeah i heard this in the radio while i was driving to Seria for my Frisbee training. In my Opinion, what they are trying to state is that people tend to link their feeling with music! ISN'T THAT INTERESTING!? i want to try this out! SO i'm about to go through my music library and i'll then try to categorized them is Three different feeling that i may encounter which is;
  • That Moment when the one you Like/Love popped up in you're head [1]
  • That Moment when you're sad, relationship wise. [2]
  • That Moment when you want to just lay down and be lost in the melody [3]
NOTE: you must take into account that different people have varieties of opinions on how they interpret songs, so some of you may find my choices a little bit odd! Please do try E'm out! (:

The Songs That Have The Ability To Make You Think About Her/Him [1]
  1. When We Say - Aj Rafael
  2. 1500 Miles - Austin Morris
  3. You'll Never Be Alone - Capital Kings
  4. On My Mind (Acoustic) - Cody Simpson
  5. Goodnight Moon - Go Radio
  6. For You I Will (Teddy Geiger's) - Hafiz Haris [SoundCloud]
  7. I Wanna Know - Joe
  8. It Girl (Cover) - Johan Vega
  9. Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum 
  10. When She Was Mine - Lawson
  11. Night Like This - Letters Lights
  12. I Must Be Dreaming - The Maine
  13. Let Me Love You - Mario
  14. The Only Exception - Paramore
  15. Sleep Well, Darling - Secrets
  16. If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn (Acoustic) - Sleeping With Sirens
  17. The Leaves Will Change - Take Cover
  18. Kiss - TC [Youtube] < 3
  19. Simple Starving To Be Safe - Daphne Loves Derby < 3


Having Fights With Your Love One? Bad Breakups? [2]

  1. That XX (Cover) - Arden Cho [Highly recommend you to watch this song in Youtube]
  2. Walk (Original) - Etham Basden
  3. I Can't Not Love You - Every Avenue
  4. Bleed - Hot Chelle Rae
  5. The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
  6. When I Was Your Man (Cover) - TwentyFourSeven
  7. August - Abdandon All Ships
  8. Old Friend (Acoustic) - EarlyRise

    Headphone's Materials [3]
    1. Therapy (Live) - All Time Low
    2. And The Snakes Start To Sing - Bring Me The Horizon
    3. Beautiful Darkside - The Classic Crime
    4. Louder Than Thunder - The Devils Wears Prada
    5. Hotel California - The Eagles
    6. The Dreamer - I The Mighty
    7. Come On Over - Ibnu Hafiz
    8. Radioactive - Imagine Dragons
    9. Last Man Stranded - In Fear And Faith
    10. Ambient Space music Fragments - Julien H Mulder
    11. Day N Night - Kid Cudi
    12. What Yo Name Iz - Kirko Bangz
    13. Iridescent - Linkin Park
    14. See My Tears - MGK
    15. Thinking About You - MiC LOWRY
    16. Wonderwall - Oasis
    17. Wind Of Change - Scorpions
    18. Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
    19. Waves of Change (Kaskade Extended Remix)
    20. Almostfour - Wolftron
    21. Volcano (Zeds Dead Remix)

    well these are my choices! WHAT'S YOURS? :)

    Ps - I would Love to know what y'guys want me to write next! it's troublesome for me to think about the topic!









    Wednesday, 10 July 2013

    i Charizard you

    i would like to say Happy Ramadhan to all the Muslims out there! ..let's take this opportunity to wash away all of our sins and actions & although i ain't very religious, i hope good things will be bestowed upon me and all of us on this holy month. Amiin.



    ..so i have no clues on what to write on my next post & decided to answer a question that i found very interesting. TAKE NOTE! you may not understand the content of this post so please feel free to give me feedback on anything [ People are entitled to have different opinions and judgement

    What is Love?

    i came across this question too often & witnessed variety of answers that in some way related. In my opinion, Love is the ultimate stage/form of Like. For people that plays Pokemon, i can easily structured my definition of Love through my favorite Pokemon of all time. Charmander = Like [Evolve] Charmeleon = Fond [Evolve] Charizard = Love. These three stages of feelings have it's own unique way to be further describe. I do hope my explanations makes sense ._.

    Gotta Catch e'm all!



    Let's take a look at Charmander first. When you have a Charmander for someone, you'll experience the sudden urge to smile or be nervous every time he/she exist close to you and the fact that you don't even know why you act that way. I have this hypothesis that in every human beings there's a set of unique list within them that when fulfilled will trigger the sense of "Want" which contribute to the growth of Charmander for someone. Please note that, this particular list is not special because it tend to describe people not with depth. That is why you tend to develop Charmander easily. DO YOU GET IT? haha!


    After awhile, if Charmander is frequently being involve for a certain someone. It will self-force to an evolution forming a greater form of feeling which is Charmeleon[Fond]. This happened when you've finally realized that there's more reasons to fall for someone than the mere set list that i have described earlier. Your mind & opinions will be jumbled up and restructured based on this new profound feeling, meaning that you'll more likely to be very interested on their aspects of character. Hence, feeling more comfortable & even value them in a sort of way that you'll never imagine feeling. Charmeleon is more powerful & meaningful. Even the little things that he/she did will have an impact on you, a good one. I hope you'll get the idea on what i'm talking about..


    The Final stage, Charizard[Love]! This is the most wonderful, powerful & indescribably feeling ever. Yes. INDESCRIBABLY. i can't never perfectly describe what is Love. All i can think is that Love originated from the combination of  Like, Fond and MORE. Plus the depth of Love that you'll feel is too deep to be compared to any other feelings. You know you Love someone when.. that's just the case.. you don't.. it simply happen. Weather it's in the beginning of a relationship or just simply "Love at first sight

    ..a beautiful complication i might say :) 




    Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused. -  Paulo Coelho
      



    Wednesday, 3 July 2013

    Who.. Why..




    A simple question, "How many have you loved?" Is your answer, one and only? Or is it several, all of whom have shaped your life?

    The question above have embodied the combination of both being hurt and held. Absolutely no regrets. The depth of Loved i felt for the two individuals can't be compared. Each of them have give reasons that are worthy for our past to be locked and preserved within me, to be remembered, to be Loved.

    The first girl i Loved can actually and perfectly be described around the word "Who". Who i Loved is a girl that i first met through my best friend's invitation. It was fasting month & i was invited to joined them for "Iftar" in a Thailand restaurant called Lemon Grass. So basically like most guys meeting a girl that they barely know, a sudden fairy-tale stories will be written in their head and as for me it was "Love At First Sight" the sudden urge to know and be close with her grew even with the little interaction we had about me wanting a piece of her chewing gum... hey, don't judge me.. at least we talked.. a little! lol ..months afterward, Who she became in my head was more then a reality. We shared these three elements together like.. our first Kiss, late night calls & a date on the beach. It was special. We were special. There's no doubt in my mind on what we've experienced together felt like a dream, we were in Loved. Who she is, Who she was, First Real Relationship.

    ..the next girl i Loved will be based on "Why". Why i Loved her was a girl that have changed my mind toward things that seems impossible to replicate, the feelings i once had. She is also the main reason on Why i merely accomplished with the "Moving On" stage. Although we barely know each other, and i was intended this to stay that way.. but it all changed when her personality, humors & cheerfulness.. i couldn't not fall for her. I can still remember the first time i heard her laughter across the table filled with pizzas, soft drinks & numerous friends talking and enjoying their time. The glasses she wore, the cloths she wore, and even the smile she wore, it was almost perfect, almost. When we were finally together.. It was comfortably different. i have no idea where to start.. Why i Loved her? ..we had amazing moments together, we went through a roller coaster situation together & still.. hanged on ..i couldn't just simply explain it further because sometimes what you feel can't be describe with words and pictures.

    i can guess that after reading all that.. you must be thinking about, if both of my past relationships was amazing, beautiful & wonderful like just what i had describe them to be, why aren't we still together? ..it's complicated, maybe it's just me? ..Have you ever reach a point where even if things aren't going well, you force yourself to buried all the horrid reasons away on why the relationship failed so that you can only just reminisced on why you were with her on the first place because all the moments and memories together is worth keeping? ..cause the depth i fell was too deep.


    We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you've been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. 
     But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person, someone you lovingly gaze upon and think,  “This is the problem I want to have.”
    I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way.
     Galway Kinnell

    Who.. Why.. Loved.

    Sunday, 30 June 2013

    My First

    I was surfing the internet trying to kill time when i came across this.. " Psychologists report that most people can remember up to 90 percent of the details of their first romantic kiss, a memory that is even more powerful than their first sexual encounter." ..& this made me giggled a little, like when you're about to open a BIG nicely wrapped present on your birthday kind of giggle. Human beings are simply awesome no? having the ability to recall moments which dated ages ago, nearly.



    ..i'm not quite sure if i can remember mine correctly but i think.. hmm.. During my D-Day, the weather is being awesome as the sun shinning brightly behind the clouds for us having a triple date on the beach. When i got there via Walking, i can see that she was wearing a white/pink shirt with her long wavy hair slightly wet, absolutely mesmerizing. After we got some alone time away from her friends and their dates.. i grabbed her hand & we walked toward/along the beach, searching for the perfect drifted large logs to sit on. When we found one, we spend hours (Feels Like Hours) talking, laughing, cuddling and teasing each other.. then at one moment we stop talking and stared at each other with only the sound of the wind and a small distant laughter can be heard. We hugged & at this time her sweet-scented perfume over-flowed me. Then as we get closer & closer with our lips about to meet, I SWEAR TO GOD her phone suddenly rang  ..shocked with the perfect timing of interruption, we stopped & giggled as she checked her phone. i was slightly disappointed and happy at the same time tho, i don't even know why.

    ..after that failed attempt, we decided to go back to the small huts. When we reached there.. her friends decided to go for a stroll along the beach, all six of us. We kept a certain distance from others.. and then we stopped walking when we reached at what i think is the perfect spot. I then hold her waist and gently pull her closer to me, We stare at each other again & whisper something.. then...^^YGBxhe20-74 hdce32hc93b934nc^9-327unxy7#(+!":>Giivc}GJNSVEYEBicd871 ..well i can't share everything, it will ruin the special-ness of that particular memory.. haha! Sorry.

    " The best part about a first kiss is right before the first kiss - Brett Davern "

    ..it's kinda odd, i can still remember all of it & i know i'm not the only one.. i wonder why? do you guys too? 

    Thursday, 27 June 2013

    Shattered

    Tomorrow is the 28th.. Sigh. i don't know how long has it's been, i don't even know why i still feel like it was just yesterday. My last relationship, which was Beautiful.. absolutely Wonderful.. took me months after the break-up to figure that out and now i'm stuck with " Why Did I Do That? " ..so one day i came across a song which remind me a lot about my situation, I've been listening to it.. almost everyday until now.

    SHATTERED (MTT VERSION) - TRADING YESTERDAY

    Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding. 
    Fall into your sunlight. 
    The future's open wide, beyond believing. 
    To know why, hope dies. 
    Losing what was found, a world so hollow. 
    Suspended in a compromise. 
    The silence of this sound, is soon to follow. 
    Somehow, sundown. 

    And finding answers. 
    Is forgetting all of the questions we called home. 
    Passing the graves of the unknown. 

    As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading. 
    Illusions of the sunlight. 
    And a reflection of a lie, will keep me waiting. 
    With love gone, for so long. 

    And this day's ending. 
    Is the proof of time killing, all the faith I know. 
    Knowing that faith, is all I hold. 

    And I've lost who I am, and I can't understand. 
    Why my heart is so broken, rejecting your love, without, love gone wrong, lifeless words carry on. 
    But I know, all I know, is that the end's beginning. 
    Who I am from the start, take me home to my heart. 
    Let me go and I will run, I will not be silent. 
    All this time spent in vain, wasted years, wasted gain. 
    All is lost, hope remains, and this war's not over. 
    There's a light, there's the sun, taking all shattered ones. 
    To the place we belong, and his love will conquer all. [x2] 

    Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding. 
    Fall into your sunlight.

    ..I've realized that i never actually put a real effort to fight for the relationship, to sustain the feeling she once had toward me, to be the guy who actually make her fall in the first place. i put SO much efforts to make her fall toward me and once she did.. sigh. IF this is the Karma for what I've done.. haunted by the guilt of letting down the one who gave me happiness, I've suffered enough .. i can't change the past, i can only let it change me. If somehow you manage to read this.. I'm Sorry.

    ..it's been years now. There are still more days to be filled with " Shattered  " to keep reminding me of what a fool i can become.

    Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.” 
    ― Henry Wadsworth Longfellow



    Wednesday, 26 June 2013

    Digging My Own Grave



    listening to " Bring Me The Horizon's album - Sempiternal " & laying comfortably.. while the strings of reasons which lead me to do this blog thingy had possessed my fingers as i type each word.. and yes.. you may find my English funny or wrong because i'm not that good with Grammar & stuff.. so here goes nothing!

    there's this particular girl which kinda grew in me slowly.. day.. by.. day. i don't even know how & why!
    we barely knew each other.. let alone.. experienced a real decent short conversation face to face.. 0% knowledge toward her real attitudes and personalities ...so knowing the little facts, you can perfectly state that i'm falling in blindly.. well i may hide some facts on why i am rigidly attractive to her.. but Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid, my mum might say. The thing that bother me the most is that there's a possibility for each passing days, that i might never have the courage to truly approach her, be close, be comfortable. do you get what i mean? ..isn't that a troublesome feeling? well.. i do have reasons to it.. to be honest.. experience wise. i tend to easily let go of.. things that i'm positively sure that can bring me a "longitudinal" happiness. yes. i learned that word in Psychology, might as well as use them no? ..maybe just maybe.. i'm scared of being rejected? OR falling in too deep until you reach the point where you are very vulnerable till you can't accept the true fact that fairy-tale relationship belongs only in the Disney's movies OR the impacts that may ...IF we were ever together.. & IF the relationship failed.. there's another reason for " Shattered (MTT Version) by Trading Yesterday " a song that i frequently listen to for a special reason that i might explain it on my next post, maybe ..this dilemma had me stuck in a cross-road with inter-sections & currently i'm scratching my head for the past weeks. should i give up? should i take the risk? or should i just go with the flow and keep doing what i do?..

    well to further explain on what I've been doing for the past weeks.. is that well i don't even know if these are being considered as poems but.. yeah each of them are being associated with how i feel at that particular time.. basically the equation of my routine is that before i go to sleep i construct a poem, hoping she noticed it. i know it's lame but hey different people have different ways of describing their interest right? ..a new day a new poem, you could say...

    so close yet so far just another helpless war thus hopes turn cream i have you in my dream sleep can't be delay being with you in May

    meeting the oracle hoping for a miracle be mine, be forever i Love you even in fever i know you'll care cause you're my teddy bear

    making moments in forever living without you in never routine poems will be my aim until you are mine to claim for you willingly i do

    another dawn another day seeing you would change Monday trust me trust this won't hesitate to give you a kiss

    waking up from slumber noticed that i miss a number here i define my emotion with you i will feel no caution

    on the brink of dawn i sleep making poems for you to keep from words with meaning for you as my beginning

    seeing Winter Is Coming another reason for hugging holding you till dawn making sure there's no frown warmth will be felt cold hand, melt

    23rd, there's something lunar activity, our thing go outside stare the sky see yourself how big i try your attention perfection

    tipsy thoughts before slumber i haven't even got your number use imagination within reality see you in my dream, little pretty

    words being alter intention going further late night brain storming made poem for keeping your awake, i sleep leaving words for u to deep

    walking toward the first glance creating forward my only chance. staring down looking aside. getting close just beside. in seven. heaven.




    ..dreams.